Tuesday, July 31, 2007

which haircut??

after a year and exactly one month of waiting for my hair to grow long..i'm having this crazy idea again to cut my hair short..haha

for sure i wouldn't want it to be so short like before, i'm still on the process of researching which haircut is the most appropriate my hair type and my face shape..haha and from my research i found out that katie holmes, reese witherspoon, jennifer lopez, rachel bilson, and zhang ziyi are heart shaped faces..like me! hahaha

i don't know when i'll do it..because based on my research i got the right haircut for the shape of my face, right layers and bangs i made.haha and most of all i'm still having fun curling and styling my hair..hahaha i guess i got nothing better to do that's why i thought of a new haircut..hehe i never had a chin length haircut, except when i was so young..hahaha so just wanted to try new things..hehe

here are some pics and for my friends reading this, i'm open to suggestions..hehe actually they're all similar..haha

p.s. kindly consider the fact that i got wavy hair..hehe
thanks!! bored lang kase at madaming bigger things to think off para maiba lang..hehe


missing HS

as usual i had nothing to do and i rather choose to do nonstop surfing than think helplessly..haay

i was looking around other people's multiply account and one would be ena's account..it was posted a month ago..haha so of course i'm the last one to know..hahaha

http://eeena.multiply.com/photos/album/66


miss happy go lucky days!! miss MC, miss threefourseven classmates, cliche, classroom, uniform..hehe

Monday, July 30, 2007

where is it?

how ironic, i was the one seeking for this "happiness" that i lost..but the more i'm trying to be happy..the more problems, stress, realizations, and hard decision makings i am faced with..

i know a lot of people got bigger problems and bigger decisions to make..that's the only consolation i could think of right now to "lighten" my thoughts..

i'll get through this but, all these at the same time..i just hope it'll be over soon..


pray...

Sunday, July 29, 2007

THANK YOU KAI

after talking to a friend, i felt relieved..A LOT..

finally someone understood what i was trying to point out on the "thing" i've done..she gave a lot of good points and exact realizations that i wanted to prove..

she knew where i was coming from..she also made me realize that i did have a point, though i was really worried if i made a right decision to make a stand on what i did..but now, talking to her helped me to clear my mind regarding my issues and gave me more reason to continue on this "journey"..

i just hope one day i could also explain everything i wanted..

thanks to KAI! kso di ko nasave ung conver natin! hahah sayang! grrr..hahaha miss you! =)

P.S i think i know the answer to my never ending question but, i don't want to get too excited until it's done..THANK YOU LORD!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

net is back,,,for good!

*finally it's final..the "normal" internet is back..haha and my so-called normal life is back at the same time! haha

*i've been cooking gelatin for the gulaman juice for a week now! haha and i'm glad they like it a lot, well it's easy..but the fact that they appreciate it and because they miss the pinoy foods! haha so if we are all tested for our sugar level, we're all honors! haha

*hanna got sick for 2 days and she's really a special kid..she's burning like 102F but she can still manage to smile and laugh..hehe so innocent and cute!

*starting now i would have to do a "research" about somethings and i hope whatever information i'd get, it would lead to "the right path" and honestly to something I LIKE TO HAPPEN...

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

i'm alive

yes i'm alive! haha

my brother had problems with his new "thing" going on, so he had to change the home's phone number, so meaning the internet provider would have to terminate the old service and connect a new line again and it would take 2 weeks!! this week is the second week and HOPEFULLY on the 27th we'd get the connection back! or else i don't know what i'd do for the rest of my stay! haha good thing papa has this something on his laptop, he gets signal from other networks..but i rarely use his laptop, well because he's always using it..hahahaha

luck of all lucks..hahaha (sarcastic tone) together with no net connection, my GLOBE roamning number..NO SIGNAL! kamusta naman un?!! hahahaha

the only 2 ways i'd connect with other people and to continue my social life are all gone!!! hahahahha

but i got to spend MORE time with hanna..as in MORE..haha and i'd get to cook A LOT and do my brother's food cravings..simple things like, sago gulaman, spag nang jollibee, onion rings(i think i might do this tomorrow), sort of quickly/bubble tea..mostly pinoy foods..

for those people who knew about my "story"..hahaha i'm doing great! 3 days of emote sessions and i'm back in the game! i'm good =) thankS!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

for you

i know you're smarter than that, i know you know better how to handle yourself, and i know you won't go for peer pressure.

as much as i don't want to feel this guilt, but i just can't.

maybe i've protected you from what you really are and what you're exposed to that's why i have this picture of you so disciplined and clean. i maybe stereotype but somehow that's what i know "best" for you.

it may look i've grown out from the situation, not yet. but i'm getting there to stand on my own and do the right thing i know, that may not be right for your perception.

i don't know if it was a good thing that i knew about it, but honestly it's just making me feel troubled, sad, mad, and worst pity you.

don't do this for shallow reasons and don't do it for the sake of grieving.

please be the same person whom i know and care for.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

i love mama!


i had a nice long chat again with mama, i missed her a lot..haha although i know i nag her at times..haha (baliktad?! hahaha)

she told me lots and lots of stories from her past, with her suitors, and her 6 1/2 years of relationship with papa..hahaha now i know why papa's protective and knows how "ballers" do their so-called suave moves..hahaha tsk tsk..

i got to open a little details with her because i just like to let her do the talking, i know she has been longing for someone to have a "girl to girl talk"..like we always do back home..

now, i think she understands me why i want to pursue what i want..and i thank you for that, mama!:)

i love my life but just like what the song said, "life is beautiful but it's complicated"

only God knows! :)

Thursday, July 12, 2007

back to blogging


blog time again! haha

so much fun during my week long vacation out of california..i guess i went "state hopping" haha and i was in two places at the same time when we reached the border of US and Canada!! mala-a walk to remember ang feeling ko! hahaha

so far my category of transportation would be first, by land..then by water (kung malaki ung boat)..t
hird by air..i was never loved airplanes! haha sobrang uncomfortable for me and sikip everywhere, well unless sa business class for sure! hahaha

Victoria Island, Canada is heaven for me! sobrang ganda! like what i said, kung ung papers namin for migration 2 years ago e sa Victoria, i wouldn't go back to Philippines! this is the "america" i was imagining before i was able to step on US..haha sobrang peaceful, decent people, quiet, small, and i love the weather! now i'm having thoughts about my future..haha kung trip kong magmigrate sa Victoria on my own..hahaha pwede!!!!

first hour ko sa Victoria my cousin, May asked me to go with her sa "Red Jacket" club nila..haha kse may party ung friend niya..hahaha yesss...for the first time i went "clubbing" sa ibang bansa!! haha i didn't have fun..hahah sama ko! pero kse hindi naman ako "clubbing" person so hnidi ko na appreciate and i was the 5th wheel! kamusta naman un diba?? hahaha then mayron pang chinese person whom we guess would like to approach me kse we think he's the 5th wheel too, pero i'm sorry..layo layo..hahaha english lang nosebleed na ako chinese accent mo pa kaya..i'm dead! hahaha tapos ironic thing pa is infront of the club was Victoria's Cathedral! hahaha

next day went to mass, daming pinoy pla rin pla dun, parang pinas ulit na malamig lang! haha then went to eat-all-you-can chinese..ano baaa!!!?? bkit ang sasarap nang pagkain!!! hahaha this time had the time to bond with my younger cousin, Sonny! but he doesn't call me ate! haha bkit ganon?!?! hahaha sobrang ma-ma na siya ngayon, dati makulet lang siya..bkit parang ako lang ang di na lumalaki!! hahaha of course nosebleed kung nosebleed..haha

tapos last night in Victoria the "kids" were out for a Bubble Tea = Quickly..haha sobrang proud sila about their Bubble Tea pero ahhmmms...quickly lang yan sa pinas at sa calif..haha at i expected bubble tea to have pearls on it already pero di pa pla, add on pa ang pearls..tinanong ko sa knila bkit tnwag na bubble tea..di nila masagot! hahaha sonny and me was OP during the whole bubble tea moment kse barkada un nang ni May, so kami nalang dalawa ni Sonny ang nagusap..hahaha we have the same attitude kaya siguro we can manage to talk to each other! haha tapos i don't why, pero ang BABAW nila..nagkataon we had the same hues of clothes, so they made up this purple team, green team (ksama ako dito!), blue team, and referee Sonny the Gray person..hahah cge ride on lang!! =)

dinala nila ako sa sort of Antipolo view..haha di ko lam ung place and it was nice and cold.haha we had some picture taking..hindi pala some..lots of picture taking! haha

i loved Victoria not because of the fun i had with my cousins and cousin's friends..but because that's my "ideal" place to live in..now i want to go back or make that live there! hahahaha

then back to our 3 day travel again, saw Space Needle up close! pero we didn't go up kse it was expensive, although nothing beats the experience but i didn't find it practical so it was okay..ice cream nalang! hahahahhahha

tnatamad na akong magtype pero natutuwa tlga ako sa Victoria..

back to tambay...




Thursday, July 5, 2007

july 4th



done with the 4 months straight birthday celebration..ahaha next birthday would on the "ber" months..haha

we had lunch at Pacific Cove restaurant in Malibu..

the food was heavenly! haha seafood! and the best food ever was the BBQ Shrimp!! there were a lot of french fries so tempting! and since ate nory and kuya been there, they said the birthday celebrant gets a complimentary cake, BIG ONE! hahaha of course we didn't let that moment pass..haha we immediately told our server then after meal she bought the cake and sang..haha but i was disappointed! haha the cake tastes good but not moist, it was too hard for a cake..haha mama's cake is better! haha

the beach was nice but too crowded..as in! (because it's a holiday, their independence day)..unlike our beaches here either no one is really loving the sun like americans do..haha or not everyone loves beach..ahaha they don't care even if they're burning their skin during a 12pm sun! i think more sun they get, more happy they leave the beach..ahaha i know tan lines are the best but still, you'd have to consider skin cancer and sun spots as you age..hahaha

finally i bought a wall charger for my ipod, no problemo during vacations! haha

i'm done preparing my bag for this California-Canada Roadtrip! haha

i'd be gone for a week! haha yey!

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

masayang madaling araw! hahaha

sa pinas, oo bihira akong makita sa kusina, nakikita dahil kumakain habang niluluto ng mga ate ko ung pagkain namin..haha pero ako na gumagalaw sa kusina, BIHIRA!! haha kapg sinumpong at over bored dun ako sumisingit at nagaako nang gagawin sa kitchen..hahaha

pero dito ang gulong nang palad ko e umiikot nang matindi! hahaahhaha

ngayon ako ang tao sa kusina para magluto, lunch and dinner but not everyday..haha pero since give and take kay hanna so kapag si mama kay hanna ako nagluluto from the start, ndi pre-sliced or pre-sauteed! hahaha and i'm liking it! haha kse i'm learning new recipes from the net at infairness nakakain at nauubos ang aking luto! hahah

at ung mga simpleng pagkain na pinoy kahit ilang beses ko nang gngwa pero never nagssink in skin ung ingredients, not until now..haha ngayon ALAM ko na..ndi ung NAKITA ko na..hahaha

natutuwa lang ako, kse mabubuhay ko rin pla future family ko and i can be a cooking mom..haha unlike some..hahahahha

*today is mama's birthday! pre-celebration ung pulutang niluto ko..haha wla kaming magawa nang kapatid ko kaya pinagluto niya ako nung garlic mushroom at siya ang tokwang prito..haha may pinpagaya kse siyang sizzling garlic mushroom sa nipa hut, antipolo..na nakuha ko ung lasa pero never akong OC sa presentation..haha kaya mukhang hindi pero oo! since napakabaet naming magkakapatid sa isa't-isa panay ang lait sa niluto ko pero nguya nang nguya! SIRA!! hahaha

**tapos may scary moment kse mayron kaming narinig nang kuya ko na taong naglalakad sa bubong! kmusta naman un, so binaba namin to check it out la kami nakita..tapos narinig ulit nung sis-in-law ko and finally nakita nila na may tao tlga sa bubong, tmwag kami nang police and they arrived after 30mins. tapos may helicopter drama pa! haha kse dito pala they don't climb roofs or anything kapag ganitong case na parang "blind spot"..for their own safety..

major parang movie lang ang feeling ko with matching spotlight nang helicopter sa mismong roof nang compound..ahhaha exciting! haha

good thing nothing serious, 2 minors lang ages 11 and 17..so ang parents ang responsible for what happend since minors palang..

***later since 235am na..haha we're going to Malibu, beach place to have lunch then walk on the beach after..i like!!! hahaha

****then july5 we're off to Canada, by bus, then ferry boat, and then train..adventure for us..mas maraming days ang travel kaysa sa days sa Canada mismo, pero at least we get to sleep a night at Seattles..hmmm..

*****after this week i'm going to pursue my plan..hope so!!!

happy birthday MAMA!! :)

Monday, July 2, 2007

kamusta ka kuya!

bad morning today! haha never naman kse akong naging morning person e, tapos sasabayan pa nang "bintang" with matching tono na naskin daw ung recipe nang menu for this week, e hello!! nilagay ko na kaya sa ref for everyone to see!! goodluck naman sa mga di nagbabasa at nagoobserve diba?! hahaha

nwala ang init nang ulo after lunch..haha

nagkwentuhan kami ni kuya earl with our pulutan, mais! haha tapos nakakagulat lang na isa sa kbarkada niya e namatay na 2 years ago, don. nung bata ako nakikitambay ako sa kanila (ngayon ko lang narealize na ang epal ko pala sa knila nung bata! haha) kapag may jamming sila nkikijam din ako! haha NAKAKAHIYA!! hahaha anyway si don ang slight crush ko dati sa barkada nila, siya kse ung pinakatahimik, magalang, at mabaet sa kanila..tapos kanina ko lang nalaman na he had a heart problem and more..na di sinsabi khit kanino sa knilang group..tapos ang sad part pa dito, he knew he was going to die early, di siya nagasawa at of course naganak..nakakagulat lang kse he's younger than kuya tapos aga..sayang tlga..pero sabi nga nila at least he won't suffer anymore..(God bless his soul)

tapos mayron pang part dun na naluha ako nang konti, kse mayron silang yahoogroups nang barkda niya dahil 12 sila sa grupo! kamusta naman un?!! hahaha tapos tuwing birthday binabati pa rin nila siya kung nasan man siya..(awwww...nakakaiyak!)

tapos we realized na kahit ganon kadami kayo sa group makilala mo pa rin talaga kung sino ung totoo at ung umulan't umaraw kayo ang makakasama..at di lahat yun sa grupo..

nagkwentuhan din kami about sa mga porma tactics nila before! at major TORPE silang lahat!! haha grabe!!! and ang panget nang mga tactics nila! haha panis!

tapos may girl na sobrang gusto pala si kuya and that is Lala, nakita ko na siya and i like her..tapos since torpe nga tong kapatid ko at grupo niya..di niya inamin kay lala na gusto niya at hanggang ingat at shoulder by her side lang ang drama ni kuya..tapos ilang years nung college na silang lahat at may kanya knyang partner na..nagmeet pla sila tapos pinaguspan ang past anong nangyare at wlang napuntahan..tapos ang sinabi ni lala, "di ka naman nagsabi e"

after marinig ni kuya yun, gusto daw niyang iuntog sarili niya sa pader at kung pwede sa napakatigas na pader pa! hahaa major SAYANG!!! hahaha tinanong ko naman kung bkit hindi niya inamin,

kuya: sinabihan kse ako ni Lala na ayaw niyang friends nagiging boyfriend..

ako: naniwala ka naman?!!!

kuya: oo! sabi niya e!

ako: sus! di totoo un pagsnabi nang babae, Bestfriend nga pinapatos nila friend pa?! haha

kuya: malay ko ba ngayon mo lang sinabi!! haha

nakakatawa lang dahil may mga lalake palang punong puno nang katorpehan at narealize ko mahirap palang umamin kung sobrang gusto nila ang girl..hahaha

at girls are unpredictable! hahaha

Sunday, July 1, 2007

kay gulo

nagpunta na ako sa lugar na inoofferan nang job, as a clerk or something..went there kase sbi skin kakausapin ko ung big boss nila..i don't know pero sobrang PUTE doesn't really amaze me! or in general US, doesn't amaze me..NEVER!

i asked for a sign and lots of prayers at mukhang sinagot na ako ni Lord. i THINK i know what to do..

gusto ko nalang umiyak at sumigaw dahil sobrang nakakafrustrate mga tao sa paligid ko! sagot sila nang sagot sa mga tao kung anong balak kong gawin sa buhay ko at sa studies ko..ang malupet pa dun ung GUSTO NILA ung snsbi nila..i know sabi lang naman un and it doesn't mean na i would really do it..pero sana can't they just stay quiet and let me do the talking? i won't blame them na they still feel i'm still the whole clan's "baby" pero un ung mahirap para sakin e..

why always underestimate?!!

ewan!! isa lng nakakaintindi sa gusto ko at un e si lola-tita-josie..pero mas malakas nga lang mga boses nang mga tao sa paligid namin!

goodluck naman skin!