smile - grant lee philips

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!

1. If someone says "Is this okay?" you say?
-- so far away - nine days (hahaha pangasar na sagot! haha)

2. What would best describe your personality?
-- love can't lie - sarah geronimo (true!)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
-- if i am - nine days (if i am like him! haha similarities)

4. How do you feel today?
--moving pictures - fall out boy (literally!! gulay..addictive)

5. What is your life's purpose?
-- king creole - bloomfields (with a great big soul, he goes by the name of king creole!)

6. What is your motto?
-- Trying to find my way - lifehouse (PATAMA!!! grabe..)

7. What do your friends think of you?
-- dawson's creek ost - goo goo dolls (somehow related..hmm)

8. What do you think of your parents?
-- on my way down - ryan cabrera (25% true..)

9. What do you think about very often?
-- i don't wanna lose your love tonight - wyclef jean (subconsciously??!)

10. What do you think of your bestfriend?
-- learning to breathe - switchfoot (no bestfriend for me, but i guess it's applicable sa isang tao)

11. What do you think of the person you like?
-- to make you feel my love - kelly clarkson (trying..)

12. What is your life story?
-- i want you to want me - cheap trick (HAHAHAHAHA mas mahaba pa na tawa dapat)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
-- shine your light - robbie robertson (true true..someday!)

14. What do you think when you see the person you like?
-- The dog song - nellie mcKay (WOHOOOO SAKTO!!!)

15. What do your parents think of you?
--how could you say you love me - sarah geronimo (hehe is this bec of??!)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
-- dance dance - fall out boy (galing! haha sakto!)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
-- kahit na - bridge (nakakalungkot na nakakaiyak isipin)

18. What is your favorite hobby/interest?
-- drive - incubus (true! long driving and car race games)

19. What is your biggest fear?
-- i miss you - incubus (hmmm)

20. What is your biggest secret?
-- my immortal - evanescence (make that I'M immortal! hehe pero true ung meaning nang song)

21. What song will be the title when you repost this?0
- smile - grant lee philips

will it ever end?

one thing i've learned from this new part of my *life is to face my fears or rather to face the things that i can never accept as of now (til i don't know when)..

well i've got to move on, i can't let this certain character of other people stop me from pursuing what i want in my life, i know i'm sort of cheating myself from the new reality right in front of me but, i guess it's better this way and learn on my own how to swallow everything i've been seeing..

but i guess little by little i'd be immune to all this "changes" and be numb, while looking at every captured moment of someone's life..

although i'm still trying to regain the not-so-old days, the not-so-old memories..but i'm afraid that may never be able to know how every detail feels like before..and if i'd try to change the "me" just to be able to understand everything i guess i can never be as loud, as easy, as "spur of the moment" person, as a one-call-i'm-there-friend, as a wee hours-go-home-person, as "cool"..and i don't know if this indifferences will melt down and just let things go their own way..

my friends keep asking me what to do with their own dilemma and the funny thing is i always have something to tell them and fortunately, it helped them..but when facing my own dilemmas i still don't know which "path" am i going to take and how firm am i going to be..

i don't want to be like Susan Mayer, who's a fool on love but, i don't want to be a Bree Van de Kamp; who's good in denials, good in outer presentation, and highly sophisticated that other people can't really jive with..

the song "Love Again" ----> the opposite of how i feel right now..every lyrics...

i hope one day i won't end up being a cynic about love..

random shoot!

i've been cooking a lot lately and thank God everyone likes everything i cooked! haha well they're surprised because they rarely see me cooking at home (pinas) but i'm always in the kitchen talking to my ate's..hehe well i like talking to them and help them around, especially when there's a need of chopping veggies..haha well here, everything is already chopped and peeled so quite boring! haha

well i think i learned just by looking, smelling, and tasting my ate's foods..i was always the taste tester? hehe

we're all joking around here that i got promoted from assistant chef to being the chief chef! haha and mama was demoted..hahaha

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nicole told me something about celebrity duets and hayden is part of it (the MC prom king)..haha i don't know if we should be proud about his "success" because in a way we're all acquaintances..haha

we really need to talk to pam! hahaha

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i'm getting my dream phone 7610..haha i know its an old model and A LOT of new nokia series were out in the past 4 years..haha but i've been eyeing on this phone for YEARS..hahaha and i think i'm going to be satisfied with it for a LONG TIME..hahaha

i'm going to buy it on ebay for a cheap price and its brand new! papa lend me 2/3 of the money to buy it..haha "payable when able" hahaha

but i'm a bit sad because i've talked about this with someone and hopefully we'd get our dream phone together..hehehe

dream boy, dream girl

well this is based on personal experience, friend's experience, and just an observation..=)

well if you have boylets, boyfriend, suitors, or guy fling..di ko na alam kung anong terms mayron pa ngayon! haha they tell you of course that they like you, the way you look, and the "whole" package..

and by the time you've already committed to each other (para sa boyfriend) or you're open about stuffs with each other (para sa fling, crush, MU, boylet, suitor, atbp)..you'll see that bit by bit you'll discover what kind of girls they really want..and it all boils down to their crushes, ex, past flings, etc...

if these girl in the past or present crushes has a similar attribute that you have, then he really likes you..i mean that's the kind of girl he really wanted ever since..like same features of the face, hair, body structure, skin tone, and so on..like they have a crush on this girl that is almost exactly like you, the only difference is, ARTISTA SIYA! haha then you're on the "right track" and he got was he wanted..which in return would make you feel flattered and at peace that your guy likes/loves you and he really wanted someone like you in any manner..

but if these guys would tell you that they like this specific girl and admit it or not, doesn't really look like you or not much similarity at all..then subconsciously or worst consciously! tsk that's the girls they really wanted ..the "dream girls", girls that they know they really couldn't have or girls they really just like physically and all, but maybe intellectually and the whole being isn't just there..but in this case you'd be insecure and somehow feel bothered that, the girl he likes are out of your league..

well i only shared this because it was my experience..haha at least i know who my "competitors" are..haha so i always know where i stand..but for 2 of my friends, i'd have to say sorry for them..well for one, they both just had a break up, the cause is still a mystery but well girls are girls, we go for instinct and evidences! hahaha but talking to them made me realize everything i wrote..

somehow, these guys may have seen something on my friends, but they're still looking for something else, something they really like that my friends doesn't have and yet they still had the relationship maybe for something the guys thought they really wanted..only to find out, as the years passed by, it's not my friends they were seeking for..

well of course this could go vice versa, girls can like something or someone else, the so-called "dream boys"..hahaha but not just to defend the girl's side, i just think, yes girls can have this idealistic guys in their minds, but we know how to compartmentalize..we know when crush is just a crush but we don't really want that same kind of "extra human being" to be our partners..also, some girls would want to own or to have a relationship with these guys, only to find out at the end of the relationship, that these "magical guys" should just remain as the so-called "dream boys"..

family matters

let there be peace on earth
the peace that was meant to be..

yess that's my theme song at this moment..i had a semi huge drama with a family member and it was a good way to express myself and my emotions..that i kept for a while..well i wasn't able to let it all out, even the main issue why i was acting like that..but its all good, i just believe that some things are not meant to be said..

but i was touched on how "family love" will always know how to forgive..

i was willing to eat my pride when i had the chance to reconcile with my family member, but at the last second i got tongue tied and wasn't able to speak and start a conversation..

lesson learned: never let that kind of moment slip away, when you're really ready to make the first move and continue living "normally"..also to help you free yourself from guilt

so thank you!