buhay kung pwed lang

minsan kung pwede lang 'wag maging responsble, walang worries, walang future na dapat isipin..i'd be with one person right now..haha kung pwede lang maging carefree and no bills to pay, food would come want-to-sawa..haha

right now, that's all i can think of..kung pwede lang puro "wants" ang sundin nating lahat, kung ano gusto mo gawin mo without considering yung mga tao sa paligid, kahit ano pa sabhin nila sayo, kahit ano pa-i-judge nila sayo..but of course, hindi pwede..hindi pwede gumawa ka lang ng gusto mo dahil everyone would be affected, disappointment, kahihiyan, lack of trust and respect.

kung sarili nga lang natin iisipin natin, kung gagawa lang tayo lage ng gusto natin, we would be happy on our own..pero to share it with others, people around you eversince..i know would be happier..hehe

kaya ito, aral-trabaho-ipon, then hopefully one day..everything would just fall into place knowing na may kasama ka na lage araw-araw ng buhay mo, katulong, karamay kahit san, kahit ano..


Lying here with you, listening to the rain.
Smiling just to see a smile upon your face.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I found all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes, seeing all I need.
Girl, I think you are it's everything to me.
These are the moments I know heaven must exist.
These are the moments I know all I need is this.
I have all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.

[Reff:]
I could not ask for more than this time together.
I couldn't ask for more that this time with you.
Every breath has been answered. Every dream that has come through.
Yeah, right here in this moment, it's that we're all meant to be.
(Oh) here with you, here with me.

And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments I'll remember all my life.
I've got all I've waited for and I could not ask for more.

[Repeat Reff]

I could not ask for more than the love you gave me
cos it's all I've waited for.
And I could not ask for more.

emote emote! kainis! haha
taong tubig..tama na linya!!!! hehe

twilight late madness

i've seen "Twilight" last week, ako nalang ang gising at moment ko yun while waiting for Noel to go online..so around mga 4am na nun kse he's coming from work.. =)

anyway, so yun..infairness hindi siya all bad, but it was "blah" haha thrilling and kiliging!haha kase parang may isang "hero" not like kryptonite type and spider webs..(un nga ba ung sinabi ni bella?) haha anyway, instead of your normal hero naging vampire lang naman..hindi naman msyado nakakatakot..haha kse may itsura..haha pero major putla nila ah? infairness, cold kung cold..haha

so after nung una kong panood, i played some of my favorite parts, especially ung "i don't think i have the strength to stay away from you anymore" (something like that..hehe) kilig! haha then the next day i played it again, pero this time dami kong napansin sa mga characters and mga snsabi..haha so mas lalo kong naintindihan..hehe kse nung una kilig lang at ung mga bida lang pansin ko e..haha ung "essence" ng pelikula,wala..haha

and i guess, i won't get bored of watching it pero hindi ko sya major to-die-for movie..hehe prang kapag bored ka at gusto mo kiligin, watch it ng paulit-ulit..hehe

next movie is P.S., I love you.. binurn ulit ni harry..hehe si burner man slash pirata english version kse nasa US kami,pero pinoy siya..hehe

i miss noel.. =(

first time to go out!haha

since i was ZERO social life for me, my considered social life is with may parents or with relatives. period. haha but it's fine, i'm not the most friendly person in the world. haha

anyway, last saturday night (yehess..saturday night! hahaha) we went to Elephant Bar down at Burbank. with my new friends, they're both pinoy, marianne - born here but she talks filipino the way i do. with all the "tono" and some of the "jologs" term we use. sometimes i wonder if she's lying..haha joke. then there's harry, born in pinas, but has been here for 11 years now. he visited pinas for the first time after 11 years. and he was sick first week, then no one to go out with because no one knows him anymore! haha

so there, i was doing my hours at CVS pharma, supposedly out by 10pm but they kidnapped me around 830. i was the only tech in the pharma, i was willing to stay to help out the pharmacist but on the second thought, i'm not getting paid for this, so why not have a social life instead..and so i did! haha

i didn't feel like eating, but they were both hungry so i just ordered salad, thinking that i couldn't finish it, but of course..with my b-i-g appetite, gone salad! haha Thai - High Sweet and Spicy Salad! yummy i thought we were going to get a drink, but since they didn't order any alcohol, edi wag!haha

we all had a good talk and laugh, about pinas, my life in pinas, and questions like what "if's"..they were actually telling me, after 3 more years or less my decision whether pinas or US would change. i said no, because i still don't like to be here, this doesn't feel home. i'm here to earn, make a career, live and love life. but for me to absorb this country like my own. NEVER. while i'm here and have the opportunity in my hands, i'd make the most out of it, but after years of working - saved up some money. or even start a family here, then when they're old enough, i'd go back to pinas and grow old with my husband. (of course, pinoy ang asawa ko..haha)

so we also talked about getting a tattoo..i'm willing to get one if they could find a PAINLESS tattoo for me..haha harry's planning to go home to pinas this may, i told him to go home this *tooot* this year with me, so he'll have a tour guide and make his visit more fun and not stay home all week. hehe

sayang nga e! no pictures to capture the moment, first out with friends..haha not with parents, but the thing is, i felt a little sad, coz usually since i go out with my parents all the time, the experience of eating for the first time without them is a not-so-good feeling..hehe part of me wish they were there. so i've decided to bring them there one day. hehe

**and major major major major sudden change for me and noel. he started work this monday. tulog siya gising ako..gising ako tulog siya..hahaha nakakaiyak! hehe pero kaya yan.. :)

God, answered his prayer

THANK YOU LORD!
noel got a job, right there and then he was hired, he'll start his training on Monday.
travel would be a sacrifice for him, 1 and half hour commute, 4 rides.
i'm happy because i know he's happy.
one more to go, Lord, alam niyo na yun!:)

one way street

feeling ng lahat ikaw lagi ung nagmamatigas, ikaw lagi ung nag-iinarte at nagssungit..kaw lage ung ung nakakasakit..pero sana maisip din ng ibang tao na may mga taong di nagsasalita at nagtitiis na tumahimik para lagn di magkagulo..may mga taong mas pipiliin akuin mag-isa ung nararamdaman kahit nasaktan, sinasaktan, at nasasaktan..pero i guess they'll never know it..