Saturday, January 24, 2009

more lies

sometimes being too honest and sincere can stab you back, especially when the people around you lie.

Friday, January 23, 2009

obama

"brand new day" - some captions you'd see in the papers last Wednesday, when Barack Obama, make that President Obama had his inauguration.

i'm not into politics, never was. haha but like what i always say, his platforms and promises are too grand and idealistic, which is good. he has a vision, vision that one day wars would end, everyone gets a fair deal, but how? i guess, he could make it if those people who were there in DC would start the change and do the change, then maybe.

too much emotions were shown that day, Wednesday. blacks were in tears, male or female, honored and finally felt alive. even beyonce was speechless when she was interviewed. that finally after years and years of slavery and racism, they had representative to show other Americans that they too can succeed, more than they can imagine. it's moving to see them on tv that day, so proud and inspired to do something more and make a change.

second day of his Presidency, just saw in the news, which is a 100 plus points for me. haha he signed 3 bills today, about the prison somewhere, treatment of terrorist in prison, and something else. haha most of the time, any president would sign (with all the cameras and cabinet behind him/her) the bill then that's it. but for Obama, one, he wasn't really prepared or i guess he didn't know that he was supposed to sign 3 bills at that moment. second, before he signed the bill, he read the vital part of it and further explained what it means and how it would affect the country and related. no President has ever done that. he let's his people know the details in lay man's term and starts the change on his second day of work.

him, being the President means maybe a start to end racism (esp. with blacks), a more humane and realistic way of handling the White House, less drama. and hopefully, start of a brand new day for their country.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

new year '09

another year has passed, a year of changes..a lot!

i was open to be open, i know my emotions got all caught up and all my views regarding my migration is negative and overrated but i know i'll never be able to move on and be better if i have all in this in my mind..so, i had to be open and see the bigger picture of things..and i'm glad i did..

i was open for changes and acceptance for the past year, a year of adjustment for me, still, regarding my US issue..instead of constant ranting and making my life miserable, i just look at the brighter side and have a goal, purpose for me to continue..

i became more spiritual, it's not about hearing mass every sunday or everyday, but when i'm there for whatever occassion and when i just feel down, i go to our Church (around 8 houses away from our apt.) and pray and talk to Him..whatever issue that's been troubling me, i don't plan on being dramatic..haha but i guess He's the first person whom i could go to and say my deepest feelings..and right after i go out of that Church, i just can't explain how light i feel and like refreshed to start again..

i've taken steps in making my life more fruitful..i've been going to school and few more months and i'd be graduating..like what i've said, instead of ranting, i made little steps to make me successful and achiever..mornings i go to work 7am - 3pm then get home around 4pm, have an hour sleep, then 530pm off again to school..6-10pm..go home and 4-5hour sleep then routine goes on and on and on..i never complain though, because i know at the end of all this, something good is there waiting for me and for my family..=) and i guess its paying off to be a pinoy, that for sure! hehe and my 3 years of chemistry is an edge..=) interneship, here i come! welcome jobs, welcome! hahaha

i learned to let go, again and again..without bitterness, sourgraping, sacrasm..yes, i did it! i guess my therapy worked, the more i get to know the details, the pictures, the story, the more i see it, realize things, and just be happy for others..i tell, to say that you're happy for someone else - is really hard! haha especially when you're not - at first..but when you're just powerless and awake from what reasons you've made, saying it maybe for the 3rd or 5th time, then the words has its meaning, in truest form.. =)

i gained, yes i gained weight that for surE! haha and i gained a friend, love, enemy, partner, my opposite - who puts me into equilibrium of things..when time came that i became sure of myself, then he came..he was there ever since, but i guess i just let him in this time..and i'm happy, never been happy..believe it or not, i've changed! i swear, Golda knows that it's not me, not the Eunice she used to listen to..i'm one of them, i'm one of those girls (not every aspect with THOSE kind of girls..haha) i hate it that i'm like this, but at the same time, this is the feeling who makes me, me..the girl who likes hearts (haha), who appreciates any form of love, who gives importance to small details about life, who cries not only with hurt but who cries because of joy..and lastly, a girl who is willing to take risk, be patient, and endure whatever it take even if distance is the only factor that keeps us apart..

and now i'm starting again, keeping all the good memories and people with me..leaving all the bad, anger, hatred in the past year - using them as lessons or "reviewers" in my life..

actually we don't have to wait for a year to change, i've learned that, everyday is an opportunity for us to start a new, it never stops..it's up to us to make it or fake it..=)

happy new year everyone! =)