for you

i know you're smarter than that, i know you know better how to handle yourself, and i know you won't go for peer pressure.

as much as i don't want to feel this guilt, but i just can't.

maybe i've protected you from what you really are and what you're exposed to that's why i have this picture of you so disciplined and clean. i maybe stereotype but somehow that's what i know "best" for you.

it may look i've grown out from the situation, not yet. but i'm getting there to stand on my own and do the right thing i know, that may not be right for your perception.

i don't know if it was a good thing that i knew about it, but honestly it's just making me feel troubled, sad, mad, and worst pity you.

don't do this for shallow reasons and don't do it for the sake of grieving.

please be the same person whom i know and care for.